Windy Gippsland

12.20 Tuesday afternoon

I arrived safely yesterday and had a lovely relaxing evening watching DVDs.

My friend has gone out to TAFE, and I hope she is home soon.

There is a lovely gentle big dog here, to keep me company this morning.

And yes, it is windy - but not really cold... and I had a good sleep.. without too many disturbing dreams.

We are going to go for a drive tomorrow and do some retail therapy, as well as celebrate my friend finishing her course.  Good fun, hey...

A little holiday

10.30 Monday morning.

Instead of the nuns... I am going on a little holiday to visit a friend. I will go today and come back home on Thursday afternoon.

It will be okay...

We will talk, go for a drive, watch DVDs, relax, read, any maybe even pray.

I am thankful my car is fixed.

Thankful...

2.15 pm Friday afternoon

I was going to go to the nuns next week for the week, but am not now...

 I am going to visit a friend in the countryside instead.. we will celebrate her finishing her TAFE course and do some fun stuff, rather than introspection.

 I trust it will be a rest for me.

 I am thankful
For fans in warm humid weather.
 For rain to water my garden.
 For people who have confidence in me and my ability to continue on this journey.
 That God knows,... even though, I don't!

Light and fire

No other words

 Just now...

Dinner

5.15 pm Friday...

 So, I should eat some vegetables today...

 I want to see my counsellor again early next week... but I wasn't doing that anymore... It is once a week now.

 Sunshiny days don't always bring sunshiny feelings...

 I have a canvas I could prepare for my next painting - I have some ideas...

 Just DO it 'Hope'!

Sleep sometimes helps... sometimes it doesn't..

 What about the weeds... what about cleaning my room... what about the vacuuming.

 What do I know about comforting me...

Awake!!

It has been a wakeful morning - from 3.00...

Now it is 6.00 am.

 Somehow the tension of the week - the difficulties on Monday and Tuesday and a full day yesterday caught up with me.

 I am thinking about seeing my therapist today... will I find any words... I guess some how there are always some.

 Some American friends on Facebook were talking about Thanksgiving...

 I commented that there are always things to be thankful for... even on the darkest days.

 I am thankful for the birdsong in the early morning.
 For my God candle.
 For friends.
 For my gifted therapist.
 For the promise of sunshine today.

 I am NOT thankful for spring allergies!!!

The box and doona cover

 Here is the box and below is the doona cover.  The second doona cover is the photo I showed you a couple of months ago.

 By the way ... the car has been going okay today...

 And I am feeling more settled after a stressful couple of days.

 I am having a break from working this week...

 I know it doesn't make sense, when the money would be useful... but I was in such a mess the  past couple of days - that I wanted a more relaxing day today.

Drawing class Nov 16, 2010

I did something different today - more in the abstract line.

 These are the colours of my doona covers and the box I painted that is in my bedroom...

 The star and flower come from that box too.

 Thanks to my friend too, for the camera for Christmas - so I could take this photo - albeit - a crooked one... Did you know there is no word for crooked in Malagasy!

Choices

4.15 Monday afternoon...

 Why can't we think of options and choices at the time...

 I could have come home with Betty's car yesterday afternoon at 5.00 - but had it in my mind that I HAD to get Betty's car back to her garage yesterday, because I wouldn't have time (or energy) to do it today.  And I didn't want to park it on the nature strip (which was the only option aside from the yellow flowers).

 I could have walked most of the way home around the Lake... it didn't even cross my mind.

 I could have caught a bus.

 Maybe there is someone else I could have rung, if I had checked through my contacts in my phone....

 My brain just wouldn't engage - or get out of its rut... my friend says there is a physiological reason for this, when we are stressed.

 And I didn't get to work today........

 And the lawns are being mowed tomorrow..... (so the income would have been helpful)

 I did get to the Friendship Group though - ..... their afternoon tea was nice.

Wretched car!

8.35 Tuesday morning...

 No, I still don't have the car back...

 Hoped to get it last night... Waited at Betty's for 2 1/2 hours sitting in her car - for the mechanic to ring and say he was coming...

 Was quite distressed, when I was able to get a friend to come and rescue me.
 
 I didn't want to bring Betty's car back here, because I have nowhere to park it except under the tree with the yellow flowers - that fall off and cover it.

 Just rang the mechanic...  He said he is coming soon.....

 I hope so......

Odd jobs

5.30 pm Saturday afternoon.

 - soft gentle rain..., with breaks...
 - the radio today ...  (with my 'old people's music')
 - that I don't have to do all the jobs I set myself right away...
 - that the landlord came and fixed up some things today
 - that a friend is coming to stay until tomorrow...
 - that I was able to get a new camera to replace mine that wasn't working...
 - being able to go out for dinner (I think we will do that).
 - that New Tricks is on TV tonight.
 - that I have a car to borrow until mine is fixed by Monday - it was the car computer.
 - for my God candle

study in red

11.00 am Saturday morning.

Was thinking about all those black faces pressed up against the car window, while we were playing inside the car and mum and dad were in church.

 That was the inspiration for this painting.

No words today

Nothing to say today...

 Or is there...

 A mother's grief for a sick and dying child - as she waits for Jesus to come...

 She waits, the child dies - I feel like that mother as I watch over my own sick child (hopefully not dying!)

 I am waiting....

5.00 pm Thursday

Allergies

7.00 pm Monday.

 A clear day today - lawn mowers going left and right.

 The sneezes have started - right on cue - the middle of November.  At least the itchiness hasn't taken hold yet.  Will need to get something to ease it, when that happens.

 A hot cup of tea..
 Fresh sheets on the bed..

 The car is going in for the work on the computer on Wednesday afternoon - hopefully it will be finished by Friday afternoon...

 Tired tonight ...
 Work tomorrow for at least a couple of hours...
 At least I did Curves this morning...

 How does our 'beyond gender' God express Himself as Mother???  To you???

Thunderstorms

5.00 pm Sunday.

 Severe weather/thunderstorms are forecast for Melbourne and the surrounding districts.
 The sky is getting darker and darker...
 The wind has died down for the moment...

 And Australia has just bowled Sri Lanka out in the one day cricket - which is a good thing!

  Darkness looms so often....

Thankful..

For freshly mown lawns (that I didn't have to do myself)
For a hot chocolate and piece of slice this morning after a tough time with the counsellor
For Sarah Groves music (and Tony O'Conner)
That I was able to work on my painting, using my you beaut easel.
For spring
That God knows what he is doing... even though it is a mystery to me.

5.00 pm Friday

Rain, music and candles

6.00 pm, on Wednesday.

 Even worked a couple of hours today...
 Drawing class... started a painting.
 Cups of tea...
 Music...
 Candle...
 Hot water bottle...
 Soft soaking rain
 
Reflective prayer service tonight - communion... I will show up... Will God????????

 Hmmmmmmmmmmm