Sunday, April 24, 2011

Easter....

5.00 pm 24.4.11, Sunday...

 Easter... Pasque... Passion...

 Preparation, community, betrayal...

 Suffering, death, darkness, burial...

 Grief and waiting... Black Saturday...

 Some of us stay in Black Saturday for a long time....  Jesus' friends didn't know that Sunday was coming...

 Does the fact that today, we know the next step in the story... really make any difference????

Sometimes sitting with the closed tomb, is the best I can do...

Sunday, April 10, 2011

Autumn

12.30. 10.4.11.  Sunday.

 I was leading a study a few weeks ago, about Noah and the Flood... I was glad to be reminded that God promised that springtime and harvest, summer and winter, day and night... will last as long as the world does.

 I think I have been in autumn for a long time... Is it possible to go from autumn to spring..????  I guess winter is the time when new things are getting ready to grow.  Maybe I don't want to skip that!

 Mum is doing okay... still not allowed to walk on her leg.

 I have been struggling with some big issues the past month... and I don't suppose that the struggle is over yet.  But I'm glad of a tiny couple of days without the high tension and anxiety, darkness and despair.

 As I do my gratitude exercise most days for Lent... 
 I am grateful most often for connections with people, and things that I have that help make those connections possible...

 I am also thankful for my helpers...  I am in the process of ditching my psychiatrist... it hasn't really been working for me for a long time... too bad that Loyalty is one of my very strong values!

 Am under the GP's care now, until a new pdoc can be organised.

 I am grateful that things are working out with my house mate.
 I am grateful that I've found some candles to use, until I can get some new ones...
 I am grateful that Mama God will provide for what I need too, even though I can't see how that can happen.

 Hugs for everyone...